Day 3 of blogging about going toward my pursuit of trying to get healthy and you would think by watching me that I wasn't doing much in that endeavor. Well...that would be a yes and a no. I did several things today to get ready. One was to visit my doctor. Had to get the all clear. That is important. I got the "sticker shock" of weighing 230 on her scales. Did I expect anything less? Golly no! LOL But it was about 8lbs more than what I weighed on her scales just a month ago. Embarrassing...yes! I did not have any excuses for her. I told her that I have spent the last month grieving my life but I was there to move on. We talked about my eating plan. I told her that I wanted to start eating 'clean' or at least more organic than I have been. I also am going to start following WW point system because even on a cleaner/organic eating plan, a person could really blow calories out of the water. She was agreeable to that.
Now on to goals. All reasonable weight loss plans will tell you that you have to have goals...reasonable, attainable goals. I cannot even begin to tell you all the goals I have set in the past. I have set measurable goals. Goals with time limits on them. Goals that were scale related. Goals that were non-scale related. I am an analytical person. I have had 'schooling' in writing goals. I can 'goal' with the best of them. I have written short-term goals. I have written long-term goals. I have written long-term goals with short-term goals with objectives and time tables as to when I wanted to reach those objectives. Yet, I sit here today never, ever, never, ever having met hardly a one of those thousands of goals I have written in the past. So, I feel a bit of a hypocrite writing another goal or even wanting to think of another goal to reach. BUT I know that I just cannot "launch" myself into space without having something to reach and something to attain.
I do know one goal that I made when I turned 30 that I wanted to meet by the time I turned 40 and that was to run in a competitive race even if I came in last place. I set that goal 7 years ago. IT is still attainable. THAT is one goal I still can meet and reach with this endeavor.
I have another doctor's appt on April 18th. I really want to knock her socks off with my weight loss. I'm thinking 10lbs off by then would be a great attainable goal.
Other than that...my goal is just to start turning to God instead of food. To learn that my life is more important than food. I want God to chisel away at my insane desire to hide from life, from others, from Him by using food and my weight.
One more goal is to just blog every day. I want to hold myself accountable for my own actions. I want my life to be a reflection of my inner self. I want to one day see my inner self stare at me from the mirror and that is not happening right now.
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