By The Weigh

I wanted to wait and write this blog until after I had my first weigh ins at both Ton of Fun and TOPS. Yesterday was that day. 

I am not going to hide behind the number on the scale. I haven't for a long time. I realized that a number is just that...a number. It doesn't define me or who I am. However, it is a big deal in who I am and the person I want to to become. So, it is time to just set the person inside of me free. 

I started last year at TOPS with a weight of 199.75 and end the year with a weight of 205.75. I pretty much just stayed between 202 and 205 all year. Not going much beyond that range. It would be great if I was maintaining, but as we all know on a 5'3" woman, that weight is still termed "obese". Time to do something. 

Jan 4th was the mandatory weigh-in for Ton of Fun from Fleet Feet. I went in that day. I had on a great lightweight outfit. It was the morning. I just assumed that my weight would be withing the "normal" range that it had been at TOPS all the last year. I just about threw up when their scale read 208.4. What had happened?!? Well, THIS was NOT going to go on!! Not any more! This was NOT going to be the year I just let it all go. 

So, I became serious. Even with a snow storm that left us home bound for several days, I stuck to the plan. I couldn't go weigh in with TOPS or a second weigh in with TofF because of the snow so I stuck it out. We made a trek to Bloomington on Friday to do my second weigh in with TofF. I was nervous. Had I done OK? 

My first weigh in at TofF went well. I lost 3.6 lbs. I was happy with that but it was met with mixed emotions. I was 204.8. Good number, but a number I had seen a lot over the past year. I knew that number well. This is where the rubber met the road. Could I pull this off for the long term? Can I do this to make it worth it all? Just time will really tell. 

Because I do not live in Bloomington, I am going to weigh in on Tuesdays at TofF hopefully before going to TOPS. This is what I did last night. I was so nervous. It had just been a few days since my last weigh-in. I had one day where I was really off. I probably ate close to 3000 calories if I was really honest. I have done weight loss before but I have not really done it to this level. So, I took a deep breath, opened the doors to the store and stepped inside. 

I lost another 4.4 lbs for a total of 8 lbs lost in 10 days. The scales read 200.4. Yes...that number was one I haven't seen in a while. Now my worry is...is it too much to fast? Once again, only time will tell. However, I have been around weight loss and people losing weight for a long time. I think a lot of this is water weight. I'm also not too worried at this point. I have been doing most things correctly other than the one day slip. Sometimes the body just is ready to take on a new challenge. 

Now onto the TOPS weigh-in. The first weigh-in for TOPS is unique. It neither counts for you or against you. In the long run, it does matter, but for the year, it only can 'help' you if you gain and then lose it so to speak. They do not recognize what you lose between the last weight of the year before and the first weigh in of the year. So, I could have waited to do anything about my weight until after my first weigh in at TOPS. It would have really "helped" me to be at 208 and then lose the 8 lbs through TOPS. However, I chose to do what was best for me. I'm tired of manipulating the numbers and the system to try and win anything. So, I did what I did for the best of me. I weighed in at TOPS, on their scales, at 200 even. It showed a loss of 5.75 lbs from the last time I weighed at TOPS. 

Now it will be interesting to see what I will do next Tuesday. I won't be able to weigh in at TOPS do to another commitment. However, I will be going to weigh in at TofF. I know that my weight will not be coming off as fast, but I do hope to be below 200. I sure want to be in "onederland" and stay there...FOREVER!!

I do have an article of running clothes that I bought at a garage sale that was too small. I haven't tried it on in a long time. I need to try it on and see how it fits. My goal is to be able to wear it this summer. If it is appropriate, I will take a picture and post it. I also need to find some other "goal" clothes as well. 

WELCOME TO THE JOURNEY!!!